finally

i realised how life works.
even though it seems backwards, it is the only way to do it.
even though it seems against my pide, my ego, my will, and my ME, it is the only way that my pride, ego, me, want and desire will get what it wants-
BY GIVING IT OUT- TO LIFE, TO OTHERS- BY BEING THE FIRST ONE TO OFFER IT, AND THEN IT WILL BE OFFERED BACK TO ME
unless i engage in life, life will not engage in me
unless i give love out, love will not be given back to me
it's so simple: we create our own reality!